Friday, July 31, 2009

Shen gets out

It has been a loooong week.
I actually did some things outside of the house too!
Me and my family went to Stony Brook park which is a little over half an hour from where I live, Here are some pictures:

There were over a hundred steps that I tried to take on as a warrior, at first I was running up them like I had an infinite amount of energy...then I was too tired to even walk down them. Luckily, I had a large break in between steps because my Step Mom fell face first into the water by the waterfall. I was told she tried to sit down on some rocks and fell, she wasn't hurt so everyone had a good laugh about it. My little sister dug right in and got all the way into the water. I wasn't really feeling it so I just watched. There was a lot of rock and some nice little tree coves. If you get a chance you should make your way there, it is a fun place to explore.

I also had an interview for a job yesterday. That went well, I have already been offered the position! So afterward my family and I all went to Super Cruise Night. Super Cruise Night is where all of the old cars from the area sit around in giant parking lots for people to look at. It was kind of neat to see all of the cars, but I got bored pretty quickly.

I am in this week's Free Fridayz also as #12. There are a lot of really good submissions this week!
I already have a sweet idea cooked up for next week. I am collaborating with my friend Seth. He is the guy down there with the beach pictures, you know the one holding that large jug of brown liquid.

Eva and I have a lot of the website worked out. It should be up and running anytime now, and I can't wait! It should be a real treat!!

Well, I think this is the most I have ever wrote for one of these normal entries. So here is your music:

They're Coming To Take Me Away
Twenty Years
We Crawl


Tuesday, July 28, 2009


So yes, I admit it. Nothing has gotten done. Nothing at all.
This week is looking to be a rough one.
But I did get this gem:

Yeahhh Joseph Gordon Levitt :]
(I am watching Miracle at Santa Anna)

No music today, sorry.
Maybe when i am feeling better.
Later Gators.

ps. I love and miss you Jenny. RIP

Sunday, July 26, 2009

The Playground Of The World

So, this weekend was pretty fun. I got to see tornado weather. The winds were crazy! I really plan on doing some little squares and then someday putting them all together to make a quilt. Seeming I have to start working a full time job again, I am going to have to start putting time aside for working on my projects. Perhaps, it might be better because I will have time set right aside for these things instead of having all day and kind of pushing it aside.
Here are some pictures from the festivities.

I should have taken some sort of picture of the crazy weather.
Today is sort of a rest day for me so I am going to do that and the work on some stuff later on.

You Can Come To Me

They called it the playground of the world.

<3 Shen

Friday, July 24, 2009

In That Very Special Way

I am having trouble getting my inspiration going, so here is a post of a poem.

I am the woman behind the wall. I shake the sulfurous paper

I am the wound licking stain. The sun sedates me.

I am a shadow behind your eyes. Moving behind bars, rays falling on my paper house created by the moon.

I am the pain in your womb. I spread my yellow stain through your body with my bulbous fingers.

I am your swollen tongue that licks my hanging hair clean. The hair that drags dirty on the floor when I crawl to and fro.

I am your disease, that sulfur feeling in your brain that clouds your every thought, that haunts your every dream.

I am the lady within the yellow wallpaper.

I should have more to post after this weekend. The website is almost ready, and I plan on working on it tomorrow. Or at least making some ideas. I was really hoping to get something done today, but ended up watching old movies instead. I watched My man Godfrey, The Bank Dick, Flesh For Frankenstein and Blood For Dracula. Yeah I know......
Here is some music:

Like It Or Not
My Old Ways
House Of The Rising Sun
You Showed Me

I promise I will do something today. maybe something grand in the small hours of the night.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

That Consistant Rotting Smell

So that up there is my submission for Fecal Face's Free Fridayz. This week's theme was Exhaustion.
Hopefully I will do better this time.
I crossed off two more movies from my Criterion Collection list today. I watched Oliver Twist and Dead Ringers. Dead Ringers was my favorite out of the two. Yes, we all know that Oliver Twist is a classic, but man David Cronenberg really rocked this one.
While taking a movie watching break I decided to finish up the dishes, which somehow left me with two bandaged fingers. I was washing the manual mixer and I didn't realize that those blades are mad sharp.
I also managed to clean the bathroom AND the bedroom (including organizing the DVDs) both an amazing conquest for me today. Well, not the bathroom I clean that all the time [something you just HAVE to do when you are terrified of water bacteria] but I would be lying if I told you I have cleaned that bedroom in the past few months. The only left that I would like to do is organize the bookshelves, but I am not sure if I want to take up that challange today. What I want to do now is take a head hurts. Well, my head always hurts. Maybe I should see a doctor about that rotting smell I smell every now and again. I swear to you, it isn't anything in my house. I can smell it everywhere I go. I think I might have broken my brain somwhere along the line.
On that note MUSIC!

Devil In Jersy City

I've Seen It All
Lion's Mane
This Love is Fucking Right

Happy Hump Day!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

She Looks Lazy

I actually got something done today.
I made a doll for the next Free Fridayz, and sure as anything right after I popped her out of the oven her legs fell off. It was an easy fix though. So here I sit, towards the end of my thrid movie for the day. So far, I have watched "A Night to Remember" Which, by the way, is pretty much exactly liek Titanic without the giant love story plot, "Grand Illusion" (a french movie on the first world war, and I am currently watching "Peeping Tom" which is a very interesting horror film from the 60's.
Here is a picture of my doll:

She isn't quite finished. The lighting in the picture is pretty bad and I think I'm going to collage a picture on the wall behind her.

Here are your songs as promised
Loosen Your Hold
In Heaven
between The Bars
Only You

Yes most of them are sad.

Criterion Collection

I am trying to watch the whole list. A large feat if you ask me, there are over 400 movies on that list! I am going to start with anything i can watch on the Netflix watch instantly option, so today it is "A Night to Remember" and "A Grand Illusion". I also promised Adam I would watch "Handcock" just to make sure it wasn't any good hahaha.
I have attempting to work on some things, but nothing is really finished to my liking. Hopefully today I will get something useful done. When I get my movie list done perhaps I will post it.
I think I will get back to my movies and update you later complete with songs for the day.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

The Beach

So yesterday I went to the beach. Yes it was rainy and cold. And for certain I swam in my clothes.
The sky was all sorts of beautiful. There was a storm coming so it was a dark dark blue over the water. This was by far one of my favorite adventures I have been on.
When we got to the beach there was this little alcove to walk through, like a boardwalk through this jungle-like mass of trees and swampy area. When we made our way to the sand we all pretty much just took off running toward the water. The water was warm, and the air was cool. So the water felt pretty good. We swam around and played until we all got too cold to stay in the water. When we got out there was cookies and sandwiches to be had by all, followed by a romp in the playground. All in all it was a good time :]
Oh! I also got my artwork on a webiste :]] Here is the link Free fridayz I am #12 :]
Here are some pictures for you:

I am very tired from the adventures, so I think I am going to relax for the night and watch some cartoons.
Musics for you:

Tane Mahuta

Cliche Guevara
Sings Songs Along
Lily, Rosemary And The Jack Of Hearts

I hope your weekends have been awesome!

Friday, July 17, 2009

Wooden Man

I am pretty sure that I won't have time to write later so I will do it now.
In about a half and hour I have to get ready to beach it up!
As anyone who has even read this knows I like to make things...that is pretty obvious. But what you might not know is that I also write. So today I bring you my all time favorite series of poems that I have written entitled : Wooden Man.


Wooden Man I
The wooden man made his way towards me
Bringing news of my imminent life
The wooden man teases me with his comings and goings
Making promises with his splintered tongue
He could never keep

A myriad of colors flow from his eyes
And burn me, all over my skin
The multitude are affected by his charm
They beg me to divulge his secrets

But I do not know them, or claim to posses them
The wooden man keeps them in a lock box made of tarnished silver
And I do not posses the key, I also never will

The wooden man will, at times forget me.
But I stand on guard waiting for him to come back to me
Perhaps, I owe him for waiting on me so.

Wooden Man II
The wooden man told me once that his heart is made of rusted metal
And when I said to him "Oh, how can it be?"
The wooden man refused to set me free

He told me that only I could ignite his fire
For I must be made of matches
Some nights I bed God to turn me to water
But I fear I could not see him with another

The wooden man in splintered and severed
And expects me to lick his many wounds clean
But they cut me and for months I have bled
One night, I fled

The wooden man used his cunning and charms
He lured me back
And locked me up
In his tarnished chest of secrets
Here I remain; along with his metal heart.

Wooden Man III
The wooden man told me once that lust is the same as love
And when I disagreed with him, I reminded him of his indiscretions
That all at once broke my heart and broke my trust
But the wooden man is always to be forgiven.

Wooden Man IV
Today I burned the wooden man
He writhed, but did not make a noise
His silence made me uneasy
So I kept on pouring the gasoline-waiting to hear him scream
But still the only sound I heard was the creak and crackle
-of his burning heart

I couldn't be his Joan Of Arc any longer
I refused to be the fuel to his intense fire
His tin lock box is bruised and broken
And I now have the key

Wooden Man V
Your shadow followed me around the room
Pulling my hair and throwing books off the shelves
The ghost of you demanded my attention
Screaming silently in frustration
I'm sorry wooden man, I've found someone else
Someone who needs me
Wooden man, you be calm now, hush your cries
I've got a match in one hand and I'm ready to burn again
I know the one who holds the key to my heart
And it's not you.

Wooden Man VI
I saw the knotted wood growing rapidly under my white picket fence.
Like a festering canker eating away at the boards.
The twisted, gnarled sick looking roots wound up around my red roses.
Choking them.
So, I followed the roots to the foot of your trunk.
And I languidly chopped you down, blow by blow.
I thought somehow that blood would come flowing over my shoes
Like the tears that fell from you in waves.
Tears of anger
Because, I would not let you ruin what I have planted.

Okay, they aren't perfect and they could do for some editing, but I am pretty proud of them. I honestly haven't worked on them in awhile due to personal reasons. they have the potential to be great.
Here are some awesome Friday tunes to jam to:

Cowboy Dan
Don't Kill Children
Loose Leaves
Tangled Up In Blue

Later taters!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Post Modern Feminism

As promised, here is your real blog :]
It may seem like I have no done much work today, but let me assure you, work was done.
I shopped around for a few websites. There is still a lot of decisions to be made as a team concerning the whole ordeal. Speaking of my team here is a link to my other business partner half's blog:
Eva's Blog
Check it out! She is pretty great!
I spent a portion of my day just finding a modest bathing suit at Walmart. That is a feat within itself.
Don't even get me started on those darn bikinis.
Here is my work for the day:

And as usual here are the songs for the day:

Like A Prayer
Mona Lisas and Mad Hatters
Shape Of My Heart
Toothpaste Kisses

Beach Tomorrow! I will be sure to post lovely things for you all.

Early Morning Rant

So here is my early morning rant.
first off, dear local movie theater:
When there is a very large crowd all trying to get into the same room, please please please organize the fucking thing. As being a person that has an anxiety disorder, I DO NOT like to be shoved into a giant crowd and pushed along. It took me almost 15 minutes to calm down. Besides, I was one of the very first people there, we came 3 hours early and got our tickets then, but somehow I was one of the last people to sit. How does that work out. I am not the kind of person to push people out of my way. And to the little teenagers wearing the Harry Potter shirts: I have reserved the "C Word" for you. You strut right in declaring " I refuse to be second. I can only be first". Throwing me your bitchy glances. Who even does that?
Okay, I am done with that.
here is my second and last one for the day:
To people I am nice to:
Well, I am nice to everyone, but you know sometimes it is just not worth it. And today is the day I step up and say "I DON'T CARE". No, I don't need to set time aside for you when I am with Adam and my little sister. And you know what? Just because you are in a bad mood is no reason to ignore me. If you did not want to talk to me in the first place...why did you contact me? I was all happy and content before you came along and implied that you wanted to be my friend. Well screw you all. I know who my friends are. They don't whine and cry to me at all hours of the night, they don't ignore me and they especially don't DEMAND my time. I give it to them freely.
So if you are not my friend I am telling you right now i could give a flying fuck what is wrong.

Thank you and good day.

[ps. I promise I will post a legit blog later..there were just things I needed to get off my chest]

I love you friends.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Harry Potter 6

Hey all!
I haven't created anything these past two days. I have been sick unfortunately.
But I do have some good news! I am going to see Harry Potter tonight, so I will be sure to let you know what I think.
Here are some songs to keep you occupied untill I can get some real work done.

John Wayne Gacy Jr
Knotty Pine
Born Yesterday

<3 Happy Harry Potter day.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

the Pain of Longing

I am convinced that is is impossible for me to sleep for more than 2 hours at a time.
What did I do to deserve this punishment?
And the dreams I have whilst I am sleeping for that 1-2 hour span are so super intense. I had one yesterday where I woke up in a full on cold sweat. Today I had one about longing. I haven't felt the pain of longing in quite some time, and it displeases me.
It was some sort of situation in my dream where I had loved this person, truly loved everything about them for years and years, but I was an afterthought to them. There was a fire at the end of this dream, and I had to ask some sort of saint or monk to assist me in extinguishing it. And the saint or monk used alcohol to try and douse the fire. This boy in my dream came to scold me but then kissed me. It was so powerful in my dream I couldn't breathe.
Then I woke up.
I could spend hours upon hours trying to decode such a dream, but I am fully aware that doing so would get me no more farther in my life or understanding myself than I already am.

Why is it that the word "I" is capitalized but "you" isn't?
See you all later today.

Monday, July 13, 2009


This is what I did today. :] The one above look like an angry robot. I think I will name him Roy. It was quite an uneventful day. I ate Chinese, bought cookies, and cleaned the bathroom.
Oh, and i worked some on my book, I think I will post some pictures at a later day.
Enjoy your Monday!

I Want You
My Winding Wheel
There is a Light That Never Goes Out

Sunday, July 12, 2009

This Weekend Adventure

This weekend I spent adventuring with my dear friend Eva.
We did a great many things including the following:
1] illegalities
2] BBQ'd
3] stormed through a crowd
4] drank whole bottles of Boones Farm on a foutain
5] saw ghosts of the past
6] took our relationship to the next level (see: Scissor Kicking)
7] planned a path for our future
8] loved on the charcoal

Concerning number 7. There is a website to be started. I will be posting more info about it. For the time being I will tell you what the plan is. We want to start a site with our art available for your enjoyment and purchase. I had an idea to create the art then sell it ready to wear also. Like a two for one deal, you can buy the art you like then wear it around town to show it off. Im thinking each piece will still be a one of a kind. Also, there will be order sheets available. You can give us an idea of what you want..and we create it!

Above are some pictures and here are songs from my adventure: I hope you enjoy!
Smack my Bitch Up
You Are The Blood
Africa Just Wants To Have Some Fun

Have A lovely Sunday :]

Friday, July 10, 2009

Quote Quilts

So I am going to list a few of the ideas I have for the next blankets I am going to make. Some have picture ideas...but some are just quotes.
If you have any ideas feel free to throw me a comment.
1] Rasputin theme: The quote is “God has seen your tears and heard your prayers. Fear not, the child will not die.” It is actually the only quote I could find from Rapsputin.
I was thinking of just making it a giant portrait maybe focusing on the eyes (although I thought that might be a little intense)
2] This quote is from Animal Collective:
"I was supposedly leaking the most interesting colors." This one is pretty simple. I want a lot of colors and patterns.
Below are just the quotes I want to use:
3] Sylvia Plath: “I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my eyes and all is born again.”
4] Chuck Palahniuk:
“If I can't be beautiful, I want to be invisible.”
5] Leonard Cohen:
“Poetry is just the evidence of life. If your life is burning well, poetry is just the ash.”

Those are just a few. I am really excited about these projects. I really like to hand stitch, but having a sewing machine would definitely speed up most of the process.

Have a wonderous day!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

First entry

So this is my first post....I suppose I should write a bit about myself.
My name is Shen'tal and all I have is free time. I sew, create and invent.
I just started doing this blog to document my progress.
Right now I am working on a blanket, and has just finished a little ditty for a website contest :]
Now back to Deathnote....