ummmmm

I haven't used this in quite some time.
Not much has changed since my last post really.
I recently put up the decorations for Christmas and really found out how much bigger this apartment is compared to our old one. It doesn't look Christmas-like at all.
I have to decide what I am going to do with this thing, once I do I'll let you know :D

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Your black tongue licked the poison of my sins
and spit them back to me ten fold.
When I banished you
You would wait at the gate crying
Crying oh so loud
How I had forsaken you
You, that had loved so much
I would throw my hands over my ears and hum
Any song that didn't remind me of you
When your specter found me
Wearing that death shroud
I hand stitched a blindfold to wear over my eyes
I vowed I would never see you again
I hold steadfast my words and decrees
Somehow you will break through to me.

i wasn't meant for these times

I am so sorry that all I have for this post is pure and utter disdain for the things that I normally love.
I just don't have any energy left for making things.
Maybe, just maybe it will only be once I stop trying that things will happen for me.
I am still having problems with the picture uploader on here.


I wish I could travel far away from here.

The way I feel Inside
You showed me
We gotta get out of this place
For your love

i was alright for awhile.

I haven't made much lately. I really promise to take a week off of the computer and start creating. but until that day comes here is a couple of pictures of things I have made:





That first one there included my dear friend Blair.

I did make some pieces out of clay that need to be baked as well. I am hoping to finish those when I take that week off.
I put a video up of my cat, if you are interested here is the link.

The photo uploader isn't working well on here today, so I think I am going to try again tomorrow with some birthday pictures.

Music:
Engine
Crying
Go Outside/Most Wanted/The Curse

<3
Shen

I love my friends.

I really love my friends.
A lot.

All of them are beautiful and massively talented.

I just wished they were closer.
Lately it has been dreary.

I might try my hand at writing later.

ps, check out my friend Tim,
http://www.myspace.com/timothytarkelly

<3

one of many lists.

This is my blog post on sexy nerds.
I goggled sexy nerds and was not happy with the outcome so I made my own list.

1] Carl Sagan

2] John Francis Daley

3] Neil Gaiman

4] Ryan Adams

5] Paul Rudd


6] Johnny Galecki


7] Jim Parsons

8] Kunal Nayyar

9] David Bowie

10] Jason Schwartzman


11] Scotty Klopfenstein

12] Kevin McHale

13] Bill Murray


14] Bill Nye

15] Masi Oka

16] Zachary Quinto


17] Warren Oakes

18] Paul Dano

19] Buddy Holly

20] Paul Simon

21] Michael Cera

22] Patrick Fugit

23] Alan Cumming




Awww, now wasn't that all sorts of adorable?
<3

Uniform

As she bled black onto the page
She felt mentally exhausted
"It was not so much this time,
just a few drops"
Afterward she felt refreshed
And looked with satisfaction
Upon her completed work.

Congratulations.

I dreamt about you last night and i fell out of bed twice.

I have sucessfully managed to finish four orders in a little over a week. Three of them are boxed up and ready to be shipped out. The fourth one was ordered as a gift and never got picked up, so I am not sure what is happening with that.

However, I forgot to take pictures of each of the creatures before i boxed them up. Silly me! But I asked all of the buyers to take a picture of the creatures in their new homes. That will be more fun anyway :]

My new little kitten is getting bigger everyday. Her favorite thing to do is knock thing off of shelves or counters or end-tables. She also does a lot of sleeping. She isn't very cuddly yet, but I am hoping she will grow out of that.








Lately, I have really wanted to go back to school. But just the thought of going somewhere new makes me feel nauseous.
That is kind of a problem :}

Heaven Can Wait

The Art Issue

I finished my skirt for good. Hurray! I also almost-completed two orders all in one day.
It was certainly at gratifying day for me.

While I am here let me turn you on to some great artists. Some I know in person, some i happened upon. Let's call this entry the Art Issue.

First off here is a girl near to my own heart. Her name is Eva and she is a dear, sweet girl. If you go through some of my older posts you can catch a picture or two of her.
Here is a link to her artist page on facebook:
Evie

Number two here is Seth. I know Seth personally and think his work is just amazing. I really respect his talent and vision. He is a really cool guy with a lot of original thoughts in his head.
Check him out here: Seth

Alexis Mackenzie is someone I actually don't know in person, but is one of my all time favorite artists. Here is an studio visit of her studio on fecalface.com, and here is her website.

Below is a list of things to check out:
Mel Kadel
Mike Stilkey
Chris Berens
Jeremy Fish
Ann Hamilton
Brian Dettmer
Swoon

that's all for now, or that I can think of.
I hope you like at least one of them.

Music?
Music.
Music?
Music!
Ready, Able
Feel it all around
Rubber Ring
Kings of the wild frontier

Happy Mardi Gras. <3

We Go To Eleven

So I found an old poem. I'm not sure when I wrote it because there is no date on it, but I thought i would share it.

I own fingerprints
That I sometimes feel do not belong to me
And all of these pictures and the same face in the mirror
Are not mine to keep

The only thing I keep are these words I write, and the cat at my feet.
The ocean of blood that boils in my veins are yours
This body that you keep locked up so tight does no feel mine

But you can not have my soul
My soul belongs to another
Who claims the key to my heart shaped like a leaf

Now the battle has begun for me
Body, Soul and Mind

I'll claim them all in one swift breath
The water will fill my lungs and none will have me

I will have myself.


it's not the best piece i've ever written, but I wrote it.

I made a skirt the other day, I'll be sure to post pictures once I wear it. :]


I spent about an hour today looking through other people's blog. A lot of people have pretty interesting lives. Lucky them. Hopefully sometime I will get to do something fun with these days before they are laid to waste.

Shen

Who Am I

Lately I've been wondering who I am.
Am I this person in the mirror?
Am I this collection of photographs and notes from my past?
Am I this list of likes and dislikes, favorite movies, bands and books?

And no matter who I think I am, here in my head ever single person that I know has a different notion of me. Whether it be friend, lover, sister daughter or enemy.
It is daunting to think that there is no collective knowledge of who I am, besides my outward appearance.

Think about it sometime.

On The Shelf

that's right! I do have a blog!

So there is a lot to update, but my favorite way to update is through pictures! So here goes:















I got to see Dr. Dog and the Growlers this month! I suppose that is the most exciting thing I've done so far.
Getting a new apartment and a little kitty was exciting too. This new place has a huge art room just for me! I cant wait until it is a little warmer so I can paint it.

music, music, music
The Growlers-Little Miss Jack
Atlas Sound-Walkabout
Andrew Jackson Jihad-Two Headed Boy
She and Him-Why Do You Let Me Stay Here?

maybe, I will try to remember this exists.